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  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: Soul Eater Ending 4: Strength
  • Playing: .//Hack Infection / ORAS
  • Drinking: Tea
I though I could start this update with some positive news but seems that fate is against me.
But since that is only few hours old news how about we start at where all this actually started, eh?

As you have noticed my lack of drawing or more or less finished drawings in my gallery, this I apologize but the thing is that I haven't have much mind to draw, only sketches during work. I'm not happy at the art I'm doing, anatomy wise at least. I'm working on that and I hope you understand this. I will try get my art going again but right now it's hard but I'll try.

I know some of you may remember me posting this journal up on August 12th
~His jouney's just begun~Don't think of him as gone away
his journey's just begun,
life holds so many facets
this earth is only one.

Just think of him as resting
from the sorrows and the tears
in a place of warmth and comfort
where there are no days and years.

Think how he must be wishing
that we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away.

And think of him as living
in the hearts of those he touched...
for nothing loved is ever lost
and he was loved so much.

~Ellen Brenneman
As the time passes and we grow older, we are forced to see your loved ones to pass away. Some will die due the age, other for saving someone, some die because sickness.
Yet, we shouldn't be sad. We should know they did live their life how they wanted and hopefully with no regret. We should be happy for them because they don't have to suffer anymore. We should be grateful for them for teaching us the right way as well learn from t

Well it is true, I lost my grandad (dad's father) back then, he was about to turn just 70 later in that month. Then again it came as no surprise, he had lung cancer and then got pneumonia on it. At least he didn't have to suffer for long with that, he slept away, thank god for that. I tried to work next day but couldn't, we weren't so close but still it was hard to deal with.
His funeral was on 5th of September.

I was starting to get back on my feet but then it seems out the I hurt my left ankle/foot. The whole thing hurt like hell and was all swallowed up. The ankle healed after several pain killers but the foot didn't, I also noticed that the pinky toe doesn't move at all. I did decide to go and see doctor about it, mostly to be sure that is wasn't broken or anything but that evening my grandma (dad's mother) called me and told that her mother had passed away. This was pretty blow back to me and to my father also. My father wasn't that emotional at it but it's because both me and he though that we need to be strong for grandma.
Funeral were on October 18th. An advice; never ever hire
priest who knows the one who passed away, it's torture by the form of 'let me tell how she/he was towards me'

On top of all this my mother's side great grandma is in hospital due small
bleeding's in her brain, this has caused her right side to be all the way paralyzed. Also she isn't all the way in this time anymore, she time to time is and just ask 'Why am I still here?' What can you say to that? Nothing ells then there is a reason why she is here still and then she wishes that she could get away. Can I blame her? No, I can't. But thinking all the things that has happened it makes me so sad and depressed.

I also visited my grandpa's grave yesterday first time after the funeral.. I wish I hadn't, I cried so much.

On top all this I did attempt to get in 5 different schools and I really hoping that I would even pass one of the exams (well I was called to only one exam in Oulu). It seems that it same as not even trying. I didn't pass the exam neither did any of the other schools accept me. (Sorry Grypwolf wont be coming down there to bug you every now and then ;P)

My co-workers told me how surprised they were at how strong I am with all these events going in my life and to be honest, I am not strong. I keep telling myself that life goes on and so should I but it's hard. At out side I can seem calm and happy but if you could see inside *shakes head* You could only see this tiny girl curled in corner, because fear, sadness, everything. Now don't suggest me some therapist, I can handle myself. I have been downing myself to games and constant RP in #DragonNation. This is how I deal with the stuff and stress.

In over all only thing keeps me even slightly positive right now is ORAS and the up coming Digimon season. I just hope I had more things to be happy for.
I hope you all can forgive me being somewhat passive right now but I cannot help it, I'll try my best to recover but it's slow, really slow progress to me.

Again, I am sorry at the art and not being active but I hope this at least clears things to you all.

Also as another note go and support these awesome people, they are wonderful and really sweet who deserve your attention more than me to be all honest;


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NinjaKato Featured By Owner 1 day ago
Kyubifan (YCH Commission) by NinjaKato  Boop <3
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Ghentian Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2014
Kiitos paljon watchista! :3
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Neavitz Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  Hobbyist
Can i have use this picture… ( it's your chars ) to blog? I need your permission. It's your chars 
so it is blog >wataha-krwawego-diamentu.blogs…
will be marked with whose character and a link to the profile on DA. I'm not going to steal your characters.
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TheBamas Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014  Professional Interface Designer
:handshake: revamphi its a honor to meet you Iam emmie 
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jrock841 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Student Digital Artist
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x-Aki Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch (:
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KibatheMonster Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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AzureHowlShilach Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2014  Student Digital Artist
:iconmuttplz::rose:Welcome to the :iconazurehowl: group:rose::iconruuzaplz:
Feel free to sumbit art realted to wolves,canines, animals etc...^^
If you have any questions feel free to ask me :)
Xyrea Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
you draw very well :3 here's a llama ^^
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ChibiMieze Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
happy late birthday x3
and congrats to your adopted egg
and also thank you ^^
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Xervous Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2014
Happy birthday!!!
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CrystalWolf953 Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday! :iconhappybirthdaycakeplz:
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Happy Birthday!!! :D:D:D :3
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